The next chapter in our lives
 
Last night was Lina and Samer's wedding. It was what I expected and more. I loved every second of it and tried hard not to cry. The Lina I knew was changed. She was a bride now. Unlike before she was so calm. So like a bride. So graceful and so beautiful with her handsome prince. As friends of the bride we were tailing them with belly dancers in front of them. We circled around with proud. It was funny alot of people started talking Arabic to me;) The funny part was a dance, similar to our Kurdish dance, Mirna and I were trying misrably to get the steps but a guy came in, he led our group, The guy later came up to me and said something in Arabic, I said with laughter to him:I don't speak Arabic!!He said:why??I said I am not Arabic..he was shocked!!It was a hallarious scene...everyone looked beautiful. I met Rob, Joe and Goerge, my friend's significant others..amazingly they all look similar to my friends.  I love my friends, they are so caring...at the end of the night, I felt some thing has changed in our lives..everyone is growing up..but its as if I am fighting it or may be it not my time...Lina is going to be starting a new life. Christine, Maria and Muna and Joelle are going toward it..and I am still here, like the five year old kid that was in the kindergarden, loves to hang around  her friends..But the difference is that this time its different..I can't really express it..

Madonna 

It's amazing what you think, will come true eventually...I was watching Madonna's interview for the second time  since last year, yesterday. Everytime I watch her interviews, I respect her more for her way of thinking, not necessarily all she has done in her past, but about her way of trying to balance this patriotic society, the double standards that exists in our society, I admire her hard work and there are several sentences in her interviews that is actually brilliant in my mind, one of them that I think I wrote before here in my weblog is the fact that if you perceive yourself as victorious, victory is yours, world sees you the way you portray yourself and hold yourself. She said that if you want some thing so  bad, you can have it but at the end it might not be what you thought it would be. She said, who is better to tell you about money, fame and beauty than someone who experienced it. It's as if she is saying that underneath the pretty pictures, there are uglynesses. what at the end is real and won't fade after a while is true love and your relationships with others. Its amazing when I studied her albums and their lyrics, her most concern is about love and most of her controversial lyrics about society is now. I think she has been in search of sprituality alot and I admire her for that. Peace of mind in a way is something that with all the money in the world, with all the fame and beauty you may not get. I think this is a very deep sentance, I think right expectations are important in life, but I guess it depends how idealist or realist we are,I mean I like to see everything is going well and every one is happily ever after but the more I look around I realize that, some times it's just a dream, but what can you do?Its amazing how watching people's biography and listening to their life stories, how your questions about living in this world may be answered, I remember that we used to learn in one of my religious books that in the judgment day, your eyes would be wide open and all the secrets will be revealed, you will see as if you were blind before, and you know whats the interesting thing?I feel like I am learning so much about life, it indeed as if my eyes are opening up..its as if I am seeing the things I didn't use to see or I didn't want to see but that is thanks to all my friends and my surroundings. Another thing about Madonna that I really admire is the fact she creates contraversies and challange the society to think and react to it. But the question is now, what type of contraversy?I mean is she resposible for her fans, who uses her as role model?I think the best example is Christina Aguillera, I love her, since her lyrics although she is very young, is very very strong, I admire her for her strength and if I could talk to her one day face to face, I would tell her that you are doing a great job and no singer is actually has evolved so fast to a mature human being and not to worry about how others who are jealus of her who make up stuff about her affects her. Her "can't hold us down" is a great example of the real Christina in my opinion. 

When working with a group of friends to organize an event,

a) Do you go with the flow and if there were a motion on the ground, you vote indifferently so you won't take side?

b) Do you actually go on what you beilieve in, regardless if other people in your groups might get upset, and give your actual yes/no vote?

have you noticed when you are waiting for the result of something, how time passes by?well its driving me crazy...I can't really do anything because I just want to know the result. Gina gave me one of the group photos we did in fencing yesterday, as part of our weekely visits:) I love talking to her, I think one of the reasons is because she is hard core logical like I am..when I talk to her and see her building up all the logical senerios of everything I just enjoy it...its great having her as my friend. yesterday the weather was great and I had a walk with another friend. In a sence I don't know why, but I feel this is the time I have to spend the most with my friends. I feel later would be too late. This weekend is going to be filled with lots of activities. Friday is the wedding, saturday the lecture, sunday one of my classes and later is a friend gathering I am going to. I want to start Karate and Kurdish dance and Choir. But first I have to see if I can find the time;)I can't wait for Lina's wedding..her official marriage certificate is going to be done today. I can't wait to see her in the white dress...oh my God...I think she is one the most beautiful girls I have ever seen:)..even for the hottest girl in our class I voted for her;)I think Samer was jealus;)anyways I can't believe the wedding date is here...

Wonderland

Yesterday My family and I went to Wonderland to celebrate Arman's and Parmis's birthdays. The last time both families went there was 7 years ago and when I look back, it seems so long ago, so many things have changed..My friend and I were in high school here and now we both have graduated, she has married and now has her own life. I wished she could join us with her parents, but life goes on..spending time in wonderland was really fun, specailly there was a persian concert going on..I have never attended any of the persian concerts since I have come to Canada but this time I joined and it was really fun.

Candle vigil

last night with a group of people we went to a candle vigil. It was interesting for me since I have never been in a candle vigil beofre..but I think some thing was missing..I still can't quite pin point it...may be it was the murmur of a song or something.. I saw one of my co-workers and real friends there. She is wonderful, I hope she gets whatever she wishes in life from God. She is extremely good at heart and positive in life. Well she made my day:)afterwards, we went to have fun with friends it was about 20 of us, and we watched a bit of street festival and then off to food;)The most fun part about it was having one of my friends with us..he and his fiance are very funny people:)he keeps teasing me;)and she keeps saying you know we love you, right;)I like him, he is so alive in the moment and he is couragous and advanturous. At the end it was a fun night, although I was scared of the whole evening event, but it ended up okay. I am so blessed to have some many good friends and as Gina puts it acquantaces.